Dipenghujung Ramadhan ~ Diambang Syawal ....

Diam tak diam, cepat benar masa berlalu, kita di ambang Syawal waktu ini, tinggal esok jek ... Ramadhan tahun ini benar2 bermakna buat aku, 

Mampu membuka luas ruang sempit kat hati aku ini untuk kembali ke pangkuan rakan2 aku yang amat2 mulia ini,  walau sebenarnya semua yang berlaku ini adalah kesilapan aku yang terlalu berkira dan terlalu mudah berkecil hati ...

Dan mereka2 ini menerima aku semula tanpa prejudis ... their tight hug are still warm in my heart and i can still feel it even now ... walau sejuta maaf aku titip, rasa bersalah tetap bergalang di jiwa ...

mengapa lah, se walang ini aku sahabat, terlalu menurut hati aku, buang korang, aku anggap hanya hati aku sahaja yang perlu di jaga, namun luka di hati kalian pernah kah aku ambil peduli?, derita di hati kalian adakah aku kisah kan? ....

terima kasih yang tak terperi ... dari aku yang hina ini, sempena di bulan yang mulia ini aku menyusun sepuluh jari memohon keampunan dari hujung rambut hingga hujung jari kaki ....

Selamat Eid Mubarak Minal Aidil Wal Fa'izin, Maaf Zahir dan Batin ....

i'm bbbaaacckkkk ..... never forgive ... never forget ...

oh dear ... its been too loonngggg ... tooo lazy and ttoooo complicated ... but everything resolved and i'm back for good ... will write until Allah permited me too .. now no more restriction anymore .... anybody or everybody whom trampled me ... you'll better watch out ...

Coz i'll never and i'll never forget ... every and each hardship i encounter, i will recite a curse on you!  it's does not matter much if you do pray harder because my Allah more powerful that your god ... either way you will loose in the end ...

i thought i've never had the strength and courage to move on ... but thanks to Allah ... i had the push i needed ... and finally i'm free ... and the best part .. the things that i thought i'd lost i got it back in no time and gain much2 more .... 

but still never will i forgive and forget for all the suffering, the tears, the heart break, the curse ... i pray to my Allah for you to pay it all back million times over .... and over again .... actually i already forgive you when finally 'i'm free' ~  but your good bye and make peace speech only was full of smug, consist of in making urself look good and keep praising urself like u are almighty ...  and never fail to criticise my weak side ... let state a fact here, whatever i do in future it does not concern you ... .  and for that ~

U make a mistake  ... a simple word such as 'good bye' or 'good luck' should enough ... but why must u said too much and went overboard! .... your good faith bite u back at ur rear ....

so my dear ... please keep doing my ur doing now because at the end it will eating you inside out, what goes around comes around .... 

each time u get angry one a matter, hammer a nail on a wall,  and keeps on continue doing that on other matters as well ... when you not angry any more on that particular matter, pull out the nail ~ although the nail were pulled out but the tiny little hole that made by the nail is still there and no matter how u try to cover it up, u can't hide a fact that there's once a tiny little hole there ....

so a simple sorry or u understand my temper rite? ... can't cure it either .... a mistake already occur and one heart already broken .... unfortunately that heart belong's to me ~